Vimeddiee

10 days into 2015....'bout time I updated my journal.

I'm excited for the new year, I want to get so much done, which means I'll probably get about a third of it done but whatever! I'm currently out of work, my contract with my last job ended so I'm just going to be freelancing until I get desperate (or disgustingly rich, whichever comes first).

I really want to get cracking on writing and drawing comics but I'll have to start doing that for free because....original web comics, ya know? Not exactly a booming business. In the meantime I may open commissions here and on tumblr which is where I'm most active.

As for health, I think I'm finally off my treatment for panic disorder! I've been weaning myself off the meds for months now and going through awful withdrawal symptoms but I think I'm okay. So yay for that. 

Hope the new year is treating you guys okay! Remember to work for your dreams and be happy! 

Hi everyone!

First of all: Thanks so much to everyone who commented on my last journal, I was so emo it was embarrassing. I'm heaps better now.

Secondly, I'm retiring as admin of my group so that I can focus on projects and work, so if you're interested in being an admin and spend hours looking at gorgeous guys, let me know in the comments! Here's the journal entry about it:

  Looking for a NEW ADMIN - Last callEDIT 9/10/14
Hi guys,
As I mentioned before, I am retiring as admin of this group and I'm looking for a replacement. Unless I find one soon I'm afraid I'll have to close the group and submissions indefinitely! I don't want that to happen
So if you want to take over and keep receiving amazing Bishie art, please comment or note me! Thanks for the good times everyone T-T
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Due to work and lack of spare time, I've decided to give this group a rest and hand over the administration to another bishie-loving soul. If you're interested in becoming an admin, please note me! I'm a bit sad to leave my group after these past few years, but I need to focus on my priorities, though I refuse to see it abandoned because of this.
I'm so proud of the group's growth and the amount of gorgeous art it has housed, I hope to stick around but not as the main (and only) admin.
Let me know if you're interested in taking over!

As for me, I'm working on commissions (which have been going really well) and I'll be posting them here soonish. I'm motivated about my original comic undertheaegis.the-comic.org/ so that's happening, and I'm taking the Inktober challenge! Busy busy busy. I post inktober pieces daily on twitter and instagram (@ Vimeddiee) so look me up!

I have a few dumps to upload too...I have artwork from as far back as February, GARSH. 

Thanks for reading! *massive hug*

(shamelessly copy-pasted from Tumblr)

Basically I decided to leave the multimedia studio I was working at as a full-time illustrator/graphic designer to start on my own as a freelancer.

I’ve been wanting to freelance completely for a couple of years now and couldn’t find the courage to take that step (financial fears), but after April happened I decided it was the best thing for me.

For those of you who don’t know, in April I had a massive panic attack with temporary limb and facial paralysis which put me in the ER overnight. I got out of it ok and had to take 2 weeks off work, go through therapy and take anxiety meds and anti-depressants (still on them but the dose is much lower, thank goodness). During this time I realized that I was putting A LOT of pressure on myself to be better at what I do, I was dealing with tons of insecurity issues that I didn’t even know I had, repressed stuff, work stress, long hours at the office, lack of sleep….it all came to a head in April.

I lost a lot of weight, I felt stuck, so I made the decision to leave my current job and office hours in general. I’ve worked in agencies and offices before and the schedules affected my health a lot, so the best thing is to go my own way and work on projects that mean something to me. 

At the studio I participated in some pretty cool projects (I hope to share stuff in a month or two) but I felt caged by the hours and the cubicles. Plus, the building is outside the city and public transport is revolting. I got home late just to eat and sleep and the personal art I did is during my lunchbreak or on sundays, because I also worked saturdays.

I’ve learnt SO MUCH at the studio, and made amazing friends and it’s tough to leave but I know it’s for the best. I want to write/draw comics and just DRAW, so I’m taking a leap of faith.

I’m going to be around social media more often to put myself out there, maybe open commissions because this will be my ONLY INCOME. I also want to take this moment to sincerely thank ALL of my watchers for your support and your overall awesomeness, I feel cherished and very lucky to have you.

Hey guys, i'm sorry to say that I've been going through some (not-too-serious) health issues and I just need a time-out from everything. This is temporary and I hope to come back with more and better art but for now I just need to release tension and stress. I was in the ER a week ago and it was a terrifying experience, one that I never want to go through again, and I was diagnosed with panic disorder (I already knew but that was the official confirmation) so right now I'm getting some treatment and therapy for it because it just exploded. I normally control it but it got too much for me which prompted me to get some outside help. 

Physically I'm fine, I had loads of tests done and they all came back normal which was a relief, so now I just have to focus on getting over the disorder and working through my panic-induced phobias (some I never thought I had) and it's a process but I'm confident I can get through it.

So yeah, my boss is thankfully understanding and will wait till I recover so I can get back to work, but I need to seriously re-think my priorities and make some lifestyle changes.

Also, the meds make me hella sleepy.